Friday, November 5, 2010

My Brain Hurts

This journey of self-realization is proving to be a doozy.

I have so much in my brain, but cohesive thought eludes me. I have sat here on the couch for over two hours with no words to express what I am feeling or thinking. Seems like a good time for haiku:

muddy thoughts swirl
thick with heavy sediment
settling in patience  

That is what my brain feels like. I want to spew all these partial thoughts, force them to congeal so I can pack them into small discrete packages. I love that. But it's not going to happen, not tonight. So tonight I take a big step for me. I am going to let things be unsettled, let my thoughts flow freely without desperately trying to control them. Ugh.

"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, 
the courage to change the things I can, 
and the wisdom to know the difference."



...anytime now with that serenity....



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