My name is Meghan and I am an elusive con-woman.
How's that for dramatic? LOL. It feels wrong even typing that (LOL, that is). I am not a teenage girl or an avid texter, and I am most certainly not laughing out loud in the literal sense. But yet I wrote it. Without even realizing it I have demonstrated my purpose for beginning this blog. For the past 8 years I have been continuously portraying a state of LOL and :), when in actuality my feelings are quite dynamic and diverse.
I have spent so much time trying to prove I'm OK, acting "as if," starring as me in the role of the person I want to be, that something has been lost. A piece of me. A fucked up, broken piece of me, but a piece no less. And a piece big enough that when faced with the really big questions like, "who am I?," I feel unqualified to answer. Fact: shitty things happened to me, but the time has come to face these "things," deal with them so that I can move on, and in the process discover who I am...really.
This blog serves as a vehicle in my journey to recovery, self-discovery and mindful living in the present. It will be a long, painful and most likely messy journey. However, I also hope to find hope, joy and humor in my travels, because although I am not well acquainted with myself, I have a feeling I am hilarious :)
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